My walk so far: What it means & where it is taking me.

So since I noticed that we literally dont need healing -- we actually need God, (then God appeared to me in the form of Jesus Christ, and my eyes were opened to the truth)...

A LOT of things have happened.

Lets catch you up.

So first of all I was just drunk, I had assumed it was the holy spirit, but it might have just been Jesus... filling me up with love for him. Like when u literally first fall in love but times a million.

I could not help but just tell everyone the good news, I tried to keep it chill on the socials so I wouldn't come across as crazy -- but to some friends, especially those who had also been through it or something similar I was uncontrolable.

Going on about every detail... totally over the top with love and glory -- On fire for christ like the women at the well. (from the bible)

Then I had a reflection when a girl I knew who had been born again a year previous, she told me her story and it was so overwhelming I thought, wow this is what I sound like -- I need to ground this and calm down a bit.

I was then thrown into a tonne of work and travel with our markets -- I remember thinking in Dublin, wow when did the world get so witchy... but also it gave me time to get back in my body, to process, to focus on every day practical stuff and stay busy -- otherwise I could have just gone on and on and on about Jesus. Like for real.

Then I started slowly telling friends... I would take the time to tell them my testimony over a coffee or whatsapp -- suprisingly most got it, some admitted to their own experiences and one literally said she saw Jesus 12 years ago, never admitted it to herself and boom was then born again and drunk on Jesus exactly like I was. She just needed the permission I guess.

But local friends particularly it seemed -- we were all totally on this vibe - quite a tough town in the midlands, we knew suffering perhaps and deep down we knew God too it seemed.

As time went on I would listen regular to music that spoke to me that had God running through it's veins - "God is" by Kanye would just leave me sobbing with joy over and over, so powerful -- perhaps this was the Holy spirit entering me more and more.

I was guided to the bible and it's teachings, and slowly more and more it became glaringly obvious how this mish mash of spiritual new age teachings/self absorbed healing world was total deception.

I decided to start posting about Jesus and my findings online, because I have been pushing all of this healing malarky for so so long, it's literally the least I could do.

I also decided that I will tell my testimony to everybody I know. Like even if I give an ounce of a care about you - then I will give you my testimony. I will share the good news.... because then they know, you know.

Either a seed is planted, or you have the information and then it's up to you what you do with it, and God can continue moving on you.

This took time, effort and energy obviously -- plus, sometimes demons are triggered, friendships ended and it's of course all in Gods hands....

This wasn't for my pleasure (although I love to talk about Jesus sure) but it's often challenging having a million questions I don't know the answer for thrown at me -- and who knows how they will react.

Some turn into little egotistical know it all spiritual demons - whos heads spin round and spit hate & pride. Quite telling tbf.

So as time went on, I also told my partner - witnessing his catholic roots a little weirded out as his grandma used to drag him to church yet he got it, and some members of my families athiest beliefs were stirred even without me mentioning any of it.

My mum went to a convent -- again maybe catholic who knows, but what i'm also realising is that religion is not the same as Jesus and many have their "religious wounds"

It's a narrow path and even though we can criticise the crusades and the church - they still spread the word and they still fought in his name... We wouldn't know about him if it wasnt for them, and we possibly may be muslim too. He would not be known worldwide for him to then return to straighten things out.

I went to Bali and randomly the Australian girl who had given me some crucial guidance for me to actually know how to speak out to God in the beginning, well she was there... And on her last day she drove all the way north to meet me and facilitate me to be baptised with a few of her friends at a waterfall.

It was kind of a bit overwhelming because I hadn't even been around anyone who had gone to Jesus. I hadnt been to a church yet and I had basically just been in my own bubble with it all.

One Palestinian client from Saudi had also been visited by Jesus -- She had denounced islam and was now living in China, best friends with an Israeli women, and magic did seem to be moving in this topic everywhere.

You tube is literaly swarming with new age to Jesus testamonies.

I mean of course... New age is literally worshipping the ego -- how on earth did we miss this.

Maybe 80% of the people I told were either open to it, already opening to it with their own strange coincidences, or at least curious..... And the other 20 were telling me how they were God, they follow this n that pagan religion, believe in this random thing or that God is everything and they would never ever pick up a bible or that it wasn't even true or whatever.

I mean the bible is literal text from when Jesus lived, it's a living testament to his life and it's written by literal eye witnesses. It's funny how far we have strayed from all of this yet will accept channeling some pleiadian alien who tells us we are going to ascend reality or some fantastical build your own future, create your own god.

After the baptism I felt amazing -- They say you are to be born again in spirit and in water.

I felt I just trusted in life more, in God more... My worries and burdens he lifted, I could tackle difficult stuff and conversations maybe I had avoided with his help and life just seemed so much better -- Like night and day I would say.

I was also so much kinder because I could see peoples struggles, plus I didn't feel so weighed down by my own or stressed trying to figure it all out alone etc.

My heart was still full with his love and I kind of thought that was it... Would we stay this drunk forever - me and the friend who was also born again would wonder... ?

She found a really cool local church with an inspirational pastor and really engaging way of teaching from the bible.

That first visit he spoke about Adam and Eve, and taking from the tree of knowlege, which is the exact part that I was so blown away by at the start -- which explains why the whole spiritual world as we know it is a complete farce.

We went to the monthly prayer group told our testamonies and blew them all away to the point they left inspired to keep witnessing to strangers and friends because who knows what seeds you might plant.

Seems we are in a worldwide Jesus revival. And he returns but not in flesh like we thought - but in spirit inside of us. Incredible.

So that took me up to now.

These past weeks I had finally gotten all of the pagan, occult paraphanalia out of my house that I owned, from crystals and spiritual books, to all the certificates and course material from so many modalities that I now saw as utter deception and just opening doors that I wanted firmly shut.

I even threw out old stuff that was linked to who I was before, and even pictures because really why do I want to keep hold of stuff from being a drunk holiday rep when actually so much darkness surrounded all of it.

I did a big big fire and then another one.... and still there was just so much to let go of it was wild.

Remaining old diaries old clothes...

The weekend of the fire was going to be my second time to church and I started to notice something I hadn't in such a long time.

Irritation at literal nothingness... just at people... at stuff they say... at the thought of going to church.... This is weird I thought.

I kind of brushed past it and pushed on getting ready and going to grab my coffee on the way to the school - my old high school where it was held.

During the sermon it felt as though my inner world was in a battle... If I had let myself I could have just started screaming at the pastor on stage... I even felt like I may pass out.

Deliverance.

I had known that I must need deliverance... There is no way that someone could have lived the life I had, opened all these spiritual doors, dabbled in all this magic and occult -- Even though I had no idea thats what I was doing -- and not have to be delivered.

I had known this and said this for a while -- and only now -- now I was facing some body pain that I had been just ignoring and accepting for so long... Now I was starting to look into it seriously -- I had been again to get blood tests, but I already knew they would find again nothing.... And so I asked God -- If this is something else - please show me, help me heal this.

So I started to watch some videos and continue to read up on the topic - and thats when they were starting to present themselves... almost like they knew I was onto them so they were starting to become very loud.

So as I write - I am kind of in the middle of deliverance.

This is very real - and the church is not prepared for the level of deliverance needed from ex new age.

I am learning a lot that this is something that christians avoid and also something that maybe split the church off into the direction that it went in.

Rather than following Jesus teachings - cast out demons, heal the sick, spread the word... the church added and changed and distorted and avoided.

So here we are.

Waking up from the new age is not just another path or something else to make us feel better - It is moving out from deception and into truth.

Jesus and his teachings are not just some pussy ass Ned Flanders style path for wimps. Truth is brutal... Picking up your cross to admit that we are all sinners that's not for the faint hearted.... and being delivered from evil ain't no joke.

Lucky I have some great support, some incredible advice and I am not afraid in the slightest because Jesus wins every time.... but truly, I never could have imagined the deception we were all in.

All those good intentions truly did pave the road to hell.... But guess what -- even though the new age is utterly demonic and many of us have been deep in it.

Jesus wins and we all know this.

His return to us changes everything.... So watch - this - space........

If you want to read my testimony -- head to my blog on my website or give me a follow on instagram where I am currently sharing daily the dismantling of new age deception and my journey waking up to God.

I'm still fairly new in my walk but I am bold and I will be sharing my testimony with everyone I know because we do not have time to waste. Even with those who frankly don't deserve it after how they treated me -- but you know what -- hate the game not the player.... and who knows what is leading them into such hate and confusion.

It is truly time to get free.

If this is speaking to you or you need a little guidance -- reach out and I can maybe point you in the right direction, it's literally the least I can do after pushing this deception for so long.

Still not sure -- should I offer affordable guidance sessions? Should I just post to support? Should I even get rid of my website completely? These are all questions I ask myself, so I would also love to know how you feel? - because just dipping out and not being a support doesn't feel right... So for now I paid another year on my website to keep sending these mail outs and to be a landing point for all my posts.... but let's see if breath ceremony simply ceases to exist or is transformed by God. It's all in his hands. 🙏

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