As I sit here in France in between clients I feel to share a few observations I have about the UK.... To share why I wont be staying there, and what I foresee happening in the next years ahead.
Someone said to me recently, "so you're going to go work in places where only rich people can come to heal - well I don't agree with that". Well let me tell you how unready the midlands has been for my work, and perhaps it might enlighten you as to why - I too deserve a decent wage and to be able to build a life ..for myself... not struggle forever amidst the rigid midlands mentality and martyr all my own hopes and dreams.
I came back 5 years ago to shift some energy and create some change in the heart of the UK.... It's more easy granted to go live in a city... London.... saturated with "healers" and crazy rent prices to keep up with the back to back clients who for sure need it, but not like they do back at home... This felt like the right thing to do.....
Over these years I have been deterred and disheartened, to see the lack of effort and focus needed by people to really get the most from my work..... Mostly from the yoga venue owners who I would have thought would jump at the chance to clear up their own traumas and issues and offer the same experience to their clients, but I soon realised I wasn't there for them or their 50% cut, or their lack of support and even sometimes honesty.
It took me a long time to realise that those that were ready would find me one way or another.... The broken but brave..... The ones who had tried it all and nothing was working, or they were still left with a hopelessness in a sea of hopelessness and lack of not just real help, but also real supportive community or family/partners, or depth of connection.
My work helps them to be their own support finally.... To be able to connect to themselves.... To find their own power and to stop expecting others to give what they themselves don't have.... To stop being the scape goat, the too sensitive one, the victim and the broken one waiting to be saved or just trying to cope with life.
In my sessions I am up front, I'm direct, we go right to the root and we sort it out.... Because I don't need to keep you coming to me week after week for years to pay my rent. Thats not in integrity. I rather you heal - as quickly as possible so that you can get on with living your lives.... being the bright star that you are, the multicoloured sheep not the black one --- Who finally broke the family patterns and used your pain instead to create art, or change or a new healthy life.
So the ready ones are there... And it has a ripple effect... to their families.... and their own communities..... Don't get me wrong, many others are ready as hell for change - but still not to invest fully in themselves... They don't understand the value of where I can take them..... Some fancy themselves as a healer too and invest in a training they saw or an online course to learn perhaps.... but to invest in themselves, nope - not yet.
Nowerdays it's also becoming more normalised..... to heal, to face your traumas or your childhood..... It's not ridiculed as much as before, but again -- It's still not at the forefront of people focus, where I thought it would be by now beyond covid, and a world where jumping in front of trains and war is aplenty.
But it is what it is... and it's all a part of it. A gradual awakening.
To watch those who are dipping in their toes come out with huge smiles and gifts.... or to watch those who dive in and completely turn their life around.... both are equally as important and amazing.
Healing will get more and more, space holders, shadow workers and deep divers as we keep calling out the love and light brigade energetically to go deeper...... or life will take them deeper who knows.
It's all a part of it... This slow unfolding and unravelling... This weaving together of broken parts into something more and more solid and healed.
I always knew England needed it.
We have a huge collective karma, from what this country did around the world... But we are paying it back in a multitude of ways. In the ways that our communities and culture is quite broken, in the rising prices and costs of living... In the weather, in our stuffed up emotions and in the political tensions.
Trust me... karma is being paid.
The souls who born here are true blue warriors, like the tattooed Celtic original peoples..... We were born here to learn, to transform and to be born here carries that huge collective karma if you are sensitive enough you can feel it... even if we weren't a direct part of it.
We try to fix these karmic debts outwardly... Being the people pleasing peaceful protesters around the world... Sending away our money to charity whilst our own people starve....
Sometimes appropriating shamans and standing up as perfect martyrs projecting these peaceful ideals onto the suffering world.... But these debts are really paid inwardly... Though our own abilities to change and transform ourselves. The traumas that we carry -- the emotional suffering held down beneath that stiff upper lip or thick smiley mask... The lack of real community, the disappearance of our magic and sense of god and spirit.
We are such warriors here that we will endure and endure until often forced to surrender and finally to face ourselves... I have seen this time and time again, big egos, false smiles, pretty elaborate masks.
To live here we need tough skin and for sure an epic sense of humour to cope... but the soil here is fertile for transformation. Thats why the creativity, the eccentricity and music pouring from these lands is so rich.
And I also wonder why other cultures are pulled to here... half my own roots from Poland, we had our own tragedies and traumas and burdens to heal. Again maybe those drawn to here needed these perfect conditions to dig deep, to transform their own suffering that they carry... because they often moan about living England just as much as the rest.
And for those who do face themselves and do "the work" the glow is unreal... because I really feel we are a magical island buried underneath this heavy karma and protective ego. If we can only put down our armour, forget what we know and face what we are... not blame the government, nor the Israelis, nor the others but face ourselves..... that magic is again totally possible !!
(little pockets of magic do exist in the villages and quaint matriarchal type families pottering away in kitchens and gardens quietly working their magic outside of city life)
So watch this space.....
But back to me - after 5 long years of struggle, I hope that I made my mark... and I will be back to do the occasional sessions or offer trainings.... but it's time to pass on the baton.
We need safe spaces to heal, I hope that I have inspired some of you to hold your own events.... and if you want to make the most of my presence -- jump onto my offerings or drop me a message to get booked in for some privates before I leave, private trainings included.
After Christmas you can still get me for online sessions.
Lets continue to transform this b*tch -- From the inside out 🙌
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