Now I didn't know that I needed saving either - before you all roll your eyes and say, "well I don't need saving" - Trust me.... I was simply confused as to why things were the way they were...

Why the world could not recognise right from wrong -- if it's so evolved and enlightened... Then why so many hate each other and hold on to grudges, and cannot live peacefullly together without having to think the same, instead having to keep quiet, not rock the boat... Why people could not address issues or differences with kindness.... etc etc etc. The list goes on.

Why was everyone struggling to heal so much or struggle with their lives, or addicted to distraction etc etc.

This was my point of contention.

I wasn't still "searching" -- not consciously, and I was not still "trying to heal" - although in hindsight - I was still in pain, maybe more physical pain than before I even started and my life was still nowhere near what I had hoped it would be by 42 years old thats for sure.

I first walked into a yoga studio around 24 years old, followed by the London Buddhist centre and started with all the spiritual & self help books - that at the time, my sister ridiculed me for... But had it truly got me to where I wanted?... In part, perhaps... it's debatable, but certainly not in full. And was it just a counterfeit "peace" that kept me walking down a long long neverending path to nowhere... That's a long time to just lose to "self development".

So it's 6 months since I noticed it was God that was missing -- by literally comparing -- my Israeli and Jewish friends..... and the God essence that is literally woven into their bones -- even if they do not admit it, into their communities into their weekly lives and their annual holidays & life celebrations.... to the rest of us.

The Bible speaks about how the Jews were his chosen people, the roots -- they were given the blueprint thats been practised for thousands of years -- and the rest of us are the branches, literally grafted into the tree of life -- and that Jesus is the way that we are brought in.

John 3:17

“For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.”

6 months since I was guided into instigating an encounter with Jesus.

6 months since I was born again and filled with the Holy Spirit.

And after a few months of pure bliss and being drunk on the love of God, then calming down and starting to learn the truth -- learning from scripture and having my eyes opened to all the deception on this fallen planet -- I can safely say my life is better more relaxed and happier than ever. And I have barely even got started.

The last 6 months I have learned so so much, and it all makes perfect sense now.

As to why we are struggling so much... Why we have this constant feeling that there's something missing, or a hole to fill, or to search or a need to distract or escape or attach or whatever -- Because a life without the foundations of God is on pretty shaky ground for starters.

A life without the support of our living creator is really damn hard, traumatic even -- and a life without purpose and without the confidence of an eternal life beyond all of this -- well that's pretty sad and brutal at best.... And that's also without following the rules that were laid out to help us to live in alignment with God and all that is good... Not lost in the pain of sin and the consequential suffering.

This last 6 months have literally been a complete and utter game changer -- I feel like it finally makes sense, I can finally start my life and I can truly let go and enjoy it fully (without the need to drink or smoke or search or distract or figure it all out alone or whatever)

Things I actually found really hard before are now completely easy.... learning a new language, sounds crazy but playing games (it always felt so fake somehow) exercise.... work etc.....

Even things like helping random clients who reached out without paying -- before I had such a limited amount of energy and everything, running off my own engine... now in comparison it's unlimited.

Not that I even recognised how hard everything was before... I mean I thought I was doing better and better -- I thought that I had it down... That I had done a lot with my life, all the travelling, all the stuff that I had learned -- but in all honesty, what even was all that?!

I didn't create the healing centre I'd dreamed of - and perhaps thank God.... And where is the family, the home, the life that I wanted to build?!

Could the New Age and all of its healing practises be the biggest diversion from God ever?! Could it be the most cunning trick of the enemy -- to keep us in distracted and somewhat satisfied, taking from us very subtly more than it gives, stalling us at every block, not saved... Not receiving the salvation from God that the cross was meant to give us.

Not bringing us in to the tree of life.

Now I believe that it's all in Gods timing.... The way it has been written, the end times, how it all had to go I see that.... But it's now time to wake up.

It's time to stop giving all our energy to nothingness, it's time to get onto the right path, and it's time that Jesus is returning. I mean you must have seen there's a bit of a revival going on.

And the part I love the most is that it's the least expected, it's the regular everyday folk, it's the broken, it's the quiet.... it's the ones that nobody listened to -- but he listened to them.

The New Age and all of its flirting with the spirit world -- well, if you were to read the book of Enoch and the Ethiopian bible with the missing texts that were taken out to create the Roman canon, well it kind of explains a lot of all of this spirituality and hidden knowlege that the New Age promotes. And it's not great I tell you.

The New Age plays on our wounding.... it flatters our ego... it makes us think we are the special ones and it makes it about us - and not God.

And it's scary how close to the satanic bible that it actually is. Again - many think that's also harmless, worshipping individuality instead of God -- but thats the sinister subtlety of it all.

Taking us away from our creator and our path.

God wants us humble.... He wants us to be less and him to be more.... It's a complete inversion on the law and order of this planet to become like gods and goddesses ourselves instead -- and we fell for it!! Big time.

In the hidden books we have angels - literal cherubim, who thought they could be like God. Like Eve did in the garden, the original sin.... They went against God and so they fell and caused the planet to turn into a chaos... This is why God flooded the world to start again -- remember Noah? And their spirits who could know go to heaven are what are roaming this earth and influencing the evil on this planet now. It's actually quite amazing...

Ephesians 6:12

^" For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."

But humans have gone against God over and over and over all throughout the texts -- but this time it's different... It's the end times they talk about.... You can literally see it if you open your eyes to look.

And i'm not sure how long we have to get our heads out our arseholes.

I mean it could be the difference between living as heaven on earth - or even sacrificing eternity.

God only knows.

“You will hear of wars and rumours of wars... Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains.”

— Matthew 24:6–8

We are literally being born again, if we allow it - and the idea to rebirth ourselves with our breath, separate from God -- well it is quite laughable.

Everything is changing... and thank God the New Age is beginning to crumble because enough already. Enough with the egos, enough with the projections, and enough with wasting our lives... We deserve to build community -- real community, not ones based on fluffed egos and idolising money or ourselves. False wisdoms and gifts handed out by fallen angels. No thanks.

But on family, on values and morals and reality. On God.

We deserve to restore this creation from this fallen state -- not just to cope with it and gas light ourselves into thinking this is so great. Because it's actually not.

In the end we have free will -- and this is the point.

The most dangerous part of the new age - I believe - is that it plays upon our vulnerabilities and our naivety.... It plays upon our desire to be seen, to be special and to have purpose....

And this is dangerous... because it ever so subtly convinces you that you are on the right track and get so invested, when you are totally off it.

It gives us gifts in return for things that we didn't agree to, and it robs us of the life that God had planned for us.

So 6 months in and THANK GOD not a minute later -- because now it's truly time to restore my own life, and I do pray that many of you will somehow hear me through all this smog of the New Age.

Because all we can do is tell our testimony - pray for others to have encounters like mine... pray for this earth to wake up and then leave it to God..... To let him prove it by walking my own path with his restoration so that it can be obvious.

And how do I know its true you might ask? Amidst all the other paths and gods and mysticism and magic...

Because I know who I was before and I know who I am now, thats how.

So I guess you shall just have to see.....

Lisa x