Why I paid 700 pounds to record my Breath Ceremony only to delete it some months later.

Yep. That’s right…. And that’s at a guess -- maybe it’s more….

From buying the rights to use songs over many years -- even crossing paths with some of the artists I would always use, thinking it was oh so magical....

Paying for the rights of songs from artists that I’ve played hundreds of times.....

Recording my work seemed like it was the best thing for me to do, a dream... yet it coincided with me seriously starting to question ~ is this actually working?

My work was already slowing down -- losing its momentum -- and showing some pretty gone off fruits from all angles.

Were we simply gaining access to moments of bliss, yet missing out on an everlasting peace? I started to question...

Are we actually making it better or are we perpetuating the problem….?

Are we just creating bigger egos, thicker boundaries and God complexes, rather than taking these spiritual problems to God, and listening to what he has to say?

Well yes, yes and yes.... I believe yes to all and beyond.

The new age has ALOT to be desired lets be real.

I mean - where are all those ahead of us on this path? Are they living in bliss, killing it at life... full of love, healthy relationships and community?

I see a void. A silence and a wall.

In fact…. All of this hidden knowledge and wisdom, I don’t think is in fact coming from God at all.

So where did it come from?

Currently getting my head into 'The book of Enoch' -- but to keep it simple, it’s simply warned off over and over and over again in the Bible. The hidden knowledge, the sorcery and witchcraft.

There’s a big difference I believe, between taking my problems to God in prayer and listening to his guidance…. than laying on the floor, breathing in and out until I go into an altered state, which potentially triggers past traumas so that I can "process them" without taking any accountability for my part in creating these inner hells.

Or sitting with God to ask about forgiveness.... A BIG difference.

Sure we can be filled with the Holy Spirit -- but that comes thru surrendering to Jesus and accepting his salvation I realise now -- not through a modality that probably came to this planet via fallen angels to be frank.

They say -- why are you trashing your past work?

Well, because I care for your soul and your actual healing, and this planet, that’s why. Not just being successful or for your money.

But you helped so many they say -- helped them to stay separate from God and distracted perhaps… I respond.

That’s nothing to be proud of… That's not why I went into all of this....

Helped some become monsters who now have bigger egos and lack humility too even...

I’ve seen it all.

So I’m sorry if you think trashing my old work is a mistake, or disturbing, because I wholeheartedly disagree.

In the end it’s money and it’s popularity…. I’m more concerned with restoring this fallen creation and us being born again -- in Christ.

So yeh….. 700 quid down the drain - oops. But it’s worth every penny if it got me closer to God…. And I would love to see you born again in Christ too.

Not endlessly chasing the healing rabbit hole -- distracted from the bliss and peace available to you when you have surrendered your life to the living God.

To get on the proper path God has for you -- not the one you are trying to force or "manifest"

In 6 months since I was born again in Christ - I have never felt so good, more relaxed, more at peace and I am not chasing nothing... Just simply allowing myself to get closer to him, to listen and be lead..... Not wasting energy tryng to "hold space" for others.

It's a completely different path and for sure a different destination.

Who's with me ?

Who's still engaged and listening?

If you are local to Newark I cannot recommend enough the assemble church at Magnus school. I would go every week if I could, but I work weekends, but they have bible study and prayer nights too -- and they are filled with people with born again stories just like mine.

I recommend if you are feeling something being stirred inside you then go along, why not.

I fully recommend seeking him because for sure he is seeking you and ready to show himself if you show a humble heart and that you have interest.

Try it.

And I have no doubt that God will reimburse the 700 pounds in other ways.... Ways that are more in line with his creation because that is the real healing.

Not whatever we were trying to do.

With love... God bless.

Lisa. x